Numbers Don't Lie

Well, I logged into Babyfit.com this afternoon & put in my current weight (mostly unchanged from 2 months ago) and took a look at the graph of your wieght that they keep for you. It's a bit of cold, hard reality for me. I've steadily gained all summer long and it's just obvious from looking at the graph exactly how much I've gained.

Last night I found myself up very late looking at adoption information. My fertility and my weight are linked and I'm feeling very frustrated by that. I've been moving in the wrong direction. And looking at adoption profiles of hopeful parents is NOT going to help me get going in the right direction! There's 4 women in our ward that are expecting, and maybe a few more. It's getting to be difficult again.

So I'm tracking my food. I'm thinking about asking Andy for a blessing. I need to find my recipe program so I can reinstall it and figure out how much my home cooking is. And I'm pleased to be able to report that I didn't gain ANY weight over Thanksgiving. So I must be doing something right. I exercised 4 times this week, which was tricky, given the holiday. But I did it!

Building Steam

I've been doing pretty well this week. Maybe it's because I know that Thursday could be very bad news if I don't Take Steps. In any case, although the pushups have been somewhat neglected, I have done 2 runs this week and a yoga. That means that I've done something every day so far. I'm thinking I'll squeeze in another yoga tomorrow morning before the Big Meal (cuz you know nothing's gonna happen after!) and then another run on Friday. I'm feeling pretty good! Need to take my measurements again so that I have (another) baseline to work with and can tell when I start loosing inches again. I also have to be very good about finding people to help me eat the baked goods that I enjoy making so much! Good thing there's going to be so many people at Mom & Dad's tomorrow!

Pressing On

Now that the wedding is done, it's time to get rolling again! Been awfully quiet around here, I'm wondering what you girls are up to these days? I'm still trucking along in the push-up challenge. We're into week 3 now, and it's going well. I did 47 pushups, divided into 5 sets, the other day. I still need to do my pushups this evening before I go to bed. Working out has been more difficult, as has drinking water. I always do better when both Andy and myself are at home. There's been a lot of one or both of us out and about lately. Hopefully that will ease up here shortly and I'll be able to rebuild my routine. I was doing so well this summer, but I've really been struggling to re-create that this fall.

I went shopping this evening and picked up a lot of fruit and some veggies to chop up. I've been realizing that my food is a significant part of the problem. I need to eat more fresh chopped veggies, more plain fruit. I need it as snacks, at meals, all the time. It's better for me. It's less calorie-filled, so it will help me reach my goals.

Today I bought pears and apples. I also picked up some bananas and peppers. They are yummy. They are things that I like to eat. Pears and apples are even more or less in season still, so they fit nicely in the Word of Wisdom:

And again, verily I say unto you, all wholesome herbs God hath ordained for the constitution, nature, and use of man—

Every herb in the season thereof, and every fruit in the season thereof; all these to be used with prudence and thanksgiving.

I've got a long way to go, but I'm working on it! One of these days I'm going to start reaching some goals!

Checking In

I took my measurements today and in spite of some Halloween indulgence, I'm slightly down. The scale says I'm up, but with all the new exercise, I'm not too worried about that! I'm feeling pretty good. I didn't do perfectly last week; I missed 2 workouts and was usually short on water. But I'm making progress both in my measuring and in building habits, which in the long term is more important than any single day.

Over bust: 38 1/2 (-1/4)
Bust: 42 1/2 (-1/2)
Waist: 37 (-1/4)
Hips: 44 (-1/2)

Weight: 203 (+3)

Pushups: 27
Running: 1.05 miles in 22:55.


I've been thinking. It seems that for me loosing weight is as much of spirituality as it is about getting sweaty and eating right. The Lord has made it clear that I need to do a better job of taking care of my body, and because it's something that He's asked me to do, that means that He will help me get it done. Thing is, that means that working through the tough spots where it feels like Nothing is Happening is as much a matter of faith and patience as anything. It also means that when I fall down and don't do very well, repentance is available, and the Lord will help me get back on my feet.

Me+Halloween= GGGGGGGRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRR! GRR!! GRR!!!
Halloween this year just made me totally and completely mad at myself! Here I am, doing OK with getting rid of my big gut, and I go trick or treating for three hours! I got loads of candy, though I did give most of it to our second youngest brother, because he stayed home with the Monkey and Monkey's Mother. Monkey just went to two houses, and Nana gave him extra. Silly woman. :) Well, we have three or four pumpkin buckets that are about six inches tall, and six inches wide. Jake, Andy, and I went on four or five streets with about ten houses each, and I filled up my bucket AND my pockets! We would've kept going but thankfully, Andy's ankle started to hurt, so we headed back home. I gave AJ a little more than half of my bucket, and then I had a trading session with our brothers, and two friends. We traded away things we didn't like very much for better things like chocolate (3 Musketeers, Snickers, Twix, Crunch, and other yummy chocolates). I traded a lot and got lots of chocolate from people. After I had had me candy for one day, ONE DAY, I had eaten ALL of my chocolate. Most of my candy was chocolate, too! I had even "decided" to save most of my chocolate until after the wedding, and eat the rest of my candy one piece a day, but obviously THAT didn't happen. Yuck! :( (Stupid idea!! Don't try it.) Then, AFTER I had eaten half my candy, and already gained some weight, I put the rest of my candy in a sandwich bag, and I gave it to Mom to hide until at least after the wedding. I was very disappointed in myself, but then again, I was happy that I had the brains to at least give Mom the rest of my candy. It was not a very happy weekend for me, though I didn't gain all that much when I ate all my chocolate. Amazingly enough, I only gained 2 pounds! Yay! :) Now I have to watch myself REALLY carefully for all of this week. I'm hoping that won't be too hard. At least today, I've been able to tell when I was full, and I have been smart enough to actually stop then. I've also found that I'm not quite as hungry, and I'm going to start taking pack lunched to school so I don't have to deal with the grease they give us. :)